I have another confession. I read in-flight magazines. They help me to forget that I am about to be launched 30,000ft at 600mph, especially with adverts like this one.


I would hate to read this and think ‘you know what? I might have to get this.’, please don’t be in that kind of relationship. It isn’t healthy. Not that you should take advice from a single guy, that is up to you.

Trust is a beautiful thing, if implemented with the right person and a disaster if given to the wrong person. I hate that I cannot give 100% love and trust to everyone. If I did, how long would it work out? How long before something terrible happens to be, benefiting the trusted person?

I was rudely awakened the other day by a man banging on my door despite it still being morning. I couldn’t hide the fact that I was barely awake despite trying my best. He said:

‘Excuse me mate, sorry to bother you but I have just taken a tablet and its lodged in my throat. Can I get a glass of water?’

For him to knock on my door he had to know the security code, he was also wearing overalls dotted in white paint. I said of course. He downed it, thanked me and walked on by.

Now, was I in the wrong for having a little internal debate with myself whether or not to do it? What if he had a knife or gun and now, access to my flat? My flatmate was away on business, something he often posts on social media. What if the guy at my door was just checking to see if the flat was empty all together?

If I was vulnerable, I probably wouldn’t have opened the door. If it was late at night, I might not have either. I don’t think it is ignorant of people to seem cautious with strangers, they aren’t the ones ruining society. It is the ones that show trust can let us down and does regularly.

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10 thoughts on “Trust”

  1. I always feel cautious around someone I don’t know, especially if they come to my door.

    As seniors we feel like targets already, with the stories of seniors being beaten & robbed because many of us can’t fight back.

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    1. It’s so sad that that happens, my mum is a care worker and it’s awful to see footage of carers abusing residents when it appears on the news, it’s gives such workers a bad name. It’s always great to see such sadistic individuals caught.


  2. Yes, I feel sad for the good carers who end up with the bad reputations of some.

    My town is small & quiet enough that I often have streets to myself & don’t see anyone. In that case, if I see another person/s who make me feel uncomfortable from a distance, I detour.

    We maybe small, but we are a crime capital in the country. Drugs have gone mad.

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    1. That’s one perk of city living, I never feel lonely even on quiet nights. Newcastle is known as a party city so whenever I am in the centre, it is always busy with a big security presence. Stay safe!


  3. Yes, thank you, we work at looking out for ourselves, & we NEVER go out at night unless its with other people or family, who have cars.

    I have a friend who lived in Morpeth Felton for 18 years. I think she shopped in Newcastle.

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